In Motion

"You and me, we just want to reach a place where we don't have to worry about anything."-Jia Wern I find it hard to live in the present, because I'm always looking forward to the endpoint. While everyone else is nostalgic about having to leave the institute which has been our alma mater for the past 5.5 years, I can't wait to get it over and done with. And not just because I get to join JW in the States after that. I'm probably too goal-oriented for my own good. I'm happiest when a task is finished, not during the process. Life is basically a series of accomplishments and goals to check off my to-do list. *Sigh* Something tells me that's not very healthy.

Today's post will be a mushy one. I am so glad that my first paper is over, because that just means I'm one step closer to 2nd December and being reunited with the husband. Don't really know how I did in the paper, but there are so many other exciting things to look forward to, so the happiness overshadows everything else. =D What, you may ask, am I looking forward to? Number one, I'm getting my hair permed before I leave for the States. In other words, a makeover - mostly because haircuts are expensive and a perm would save me a haircut for a loooooonnnnggggg time while still looking presentable. :P I always get excited by hair makeovers. That's the closest thing to a risk I enjoy taking. =P Number two, FINALLY GETTING MY STUDIES OVER AND DONE WITH. I've had enough of the education system I was subjected to, and I need a change of scenery. And I know I shouldn't be saying this, because I'm probably going to be in the system for the rest of my li...

Despite the haze, the rundown buildings and the perpetual worry that someone's gonna rob you at any given moment, KL city has a charm of its own. The rumble of the LRT may keep one awake during those restless nights where sleep doesn't come easy, but it's a comforting reminder of affordable access to just about anywhere. I remember using the LRT to meet up with JW years ago during his summer breaks. Has it really been that long? In KL, taxis practically line up for you; having a day out at a shopping mall with friends was never an issue, and took less than half an hour of travel time. Not to mention you always felt more independent and accomplished getting round KL on your own. Like you somehow defied all the odds of getting stabbed/robbed/pickpocketed/kidnapped - really, you were a survivor . =P Ah, KL, land of many memories. I could write a Bildungsroman about you. <3

I don't like to talk about my academic achievements, or talk about how stressful studying is, or post statuses about how little sleep I got trying to finish an assignment, or about how I want to continue my Masters because I just love studying so much (not). Perhaps it's because I don't lose sleep over assignments, nor do I want to continue my Masters. Whether I eventually will or not is of no relevance - circumstances may dictate that I have to, but if I do, you can be sure it wasn't due to pure intrinsic motivation. Don't get me wrong - I love learning; I just don't love studying for the sake of an exam. I want to be able to pick and choose the kind of stuff I want to learn, and learn stuff that I can't get a grade for, but are essential life skills. Like cooking. Or being resilient. Or being courageous enough to drive around in unfamiliar territory (and not get into any accidents, hopefully). If there's one thing Uni has taught me, it's tha...

Dear girls, Never date a man you want to rescue. Never date a man because you want to change him for the better. Never date a man who needs a mother more than a girlfriend or a wife. Mark my words, because the day will come when you realize you cannot do all of the above, and still respect him. And respect is of paramount importance to a man. Granted, no one is perfect, and we are all still in the process of growing. You may say this eliminates half of the potential candidates, and that I'm being harsh by indirectly claiming that men like that don't deserve love. I think it's more a matter of a maturity. You can't date kids, because their physical, cognitive and emotional faculties aren't fully developed yet. Same goes for men who haven't grown up or can't assume basic responsibilities. Lasting, healthy relationships where the woman plays the role of a wife and the man leads as the husband are important for a strong family unit. A relationship that ...

My father always told me, "If you decide to be a teacher, you must be prepared to watch your friends surpass you in future. They will be earning big money as lawyers and engineers and doctors, while you're just a teacher, even though you were smarter than them in school. If you're ok with that, go ahead." I didn't have a problem with that. In fact, I still think I don't. I like teaching, and it's what I'm best at imo. So no, I don't want to be a pharmacist, or a doctor. I want to interact with students and be amused by their innocence. I want to utilize the public speaking skills I have, and inspire my students to learn. And I get a deep satisfaction out of that. I don't think money can change my mind that I'm best cut out for teaching. Lately, though, faced with the very real possibility that I might end up a housewife or with no career to speak of for a while - I found myself struggling with something along similar lines. It's o...

Authenticity. What a big word. To me, it means being courageous enough to show all facets of my true self to others, and not hiding parts of me that I deem weaknesses. But so often I catch myself only posting up happy, bubbly, positive thoughts and moments on Facebook, and I am careful not to reveal the more negative sides of myself. Don't you sometimes get the feeling that some friends on Facebook are are such wonderful people and are constantly positive? I think it's the same case here - maybe deep inside, we all strive to maintain an immaculate image so that people won't judge us for the worse. I think it's good to be authentic, to let others know that we face the same struggles, that perfection does not exist. To make up for that, here's the whole package. #nofilter Nope, I am not always smiling or joking, I cry sometimes when I get overwhelmed (and I've been doing a lot of that lately), I get angry when others "waste" my time by being ineffi...