Selfish, for the best

My heart wants to do what's right.
When what's right isn't clear, I want to do what's right for myself.

What's right for myself usually isn't right for others, like walking away. Desertion. Abandonment. 

Because I know if I stay, I'll only get more hurt. I feel the need to walk away to protect my heart. 

And preserve whatever isn't destructed yet in a potentially explosive future.



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